Eric is my nephew and godson. He's the second child of my brother Carlos and his wife Ana. In April 2008, Carlos was living in Calgary, and the whole family went there to welcome Eric into the world.


Well, Carlos didn't really get days off (just a couple for the stay in the hospital), so they called in reinforcements. They asked me to come and help them out for a few days, since dealing with a newborn and a 4 year old (Daryna) after a c-section would be a little tricky for Ana. I was glad I could take the time off to help them out.
Of all my nephews (3) and nieces (2), Eric is the only one I met as a newborn. I moved to La Paz to pursue a Master's Degree just a few months before the arrival of the oldest pair, so Diego was already 4 months old when I met him, and Daryna was 6 weeks old. And so of course I was all about being there and helping out with Eric.
He was born April 21st, 2008, and I was there the morning of the 22nd. He was such a cute little boy! This is our first picture together:

I know, you really can't see how cute he is there. You will in this one:

AAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWW!!!!
Anyways, I had a great time. Though I really enjoyed playing with Daryna so she didn't feel left out, and making sure Ana got food and something to drink and was comfortable, I must confess my favorite part was spending time with Eric. I would completely hog him, and I would give him as many bottles as I could, change diapers, help him get rid of hiccups, put him to sleep, watch him sleep, etc., to the point where daddy got a bit upset at me...

But I didn't care, I only had a few days to enjoy baby Eric, and I was set on taking advantage of it. He was a great baby, very laid back. Not afraid to get comfortable...

I could make him relax so much that he would just lay like that on my legs. You can bet I'll try this with Lovebug!!
As you all know, Josh and I were already crazy in love, and days away from the trip to meet my parents, when he asked them for permission to ask me to marry him (aaaaawwww!!). I was waiting to hear from SFU about my application to their PhD program, and I was still very set on pursuing my career in research. Needless to say, the situation (I had finally met the future father of my children!) and Eric did a lot to make my resolution falter. The day I left, when it was time to say goodbye to Eric, I was crying like a baby. And then Ana and Carlos asked me to be her godmother... well, that didn't help! But I left happy that I got to enjoy such precious days with such a little angel.
A few weeks after that, we heard from SFU. They accepted me into the program, and they had funding for me and whatever project I decided to take. I already had a beautiful ring on my finger, and after talking a lot with Josh (and him saying whatever I wanted to do was good for him, so long as I was certain of my decision), I accepted to enter the program.
We were in Tucson, waiting for our car to get an oil change or something of that nature, doing laundry in Josh's old apartment building. I called my future professor to accept and we talked for about half hour about projects and such. We then went to pick up the car, and as we were waiting to pay and get the keys, a family walked in. It was a mom with 2 kids, a 3-4 year old girl, and a baby. I tried to look away, but it was too late. I realized what a mistake I had made. And then the girl runs to the guy behind the counter, and hugs him. He walks around to say hello to his wife and baby.
Josh took one look at me, and he knew. After weeks of careful consideration, and finally making the decision to do a PhD, one second, one look at that family, and it all fell to pieces. I took another week to make sure I wouldn't change my mind again, and then called my future professor again, this time to decline. I had experienced the time-consuming life of grad school already, and a PhD meant at least 5 years of it. I couldn't see a way to start a family and dedicate time to them while doing a PhD, and I couldn't wait 5+ years.
I knew my priorities had changed the minute Josh and I decided to be together, but I was stubborn and I didn't want to give up my career. I spent so much time meeting the right people, going to conferences, proving I was good, and I didn't want to waste it, I worked hard for the opportunities I got. But sometimes you have to let go of the plans you had, to fulfill other dreams. I finally accepted that what I wanted out of life what different, and I gave myself permission to let go. And I couldn't be happier about it. One day I'll focus on my career again, but right now there are bigger things that require my attention.
And so Josh and I started working towards our new goal. Obviously, when it came time to decide on our wedding party, Eric had to be a part of it! Some of you may remember him, he was our ring bearer.

And can I just say his sister, Daryna, was the cutest flower girl ever??

I saw Eric recently, last September, when I went to visit my family. I hadn't seen him since the wedding, I didn't think he would recognize me at all. I was told that he's such a mamma's boy, that he doesn't go with other women easily. Ana said he probably remembers me from those first days, cause he was very comfortable with me from the start, and he was ok with me holding him and kissing him, right away. I hope so. He's very much responsible of my decision. Maybe I would've made the same decision without those days with Eric, but I wouldn't be so darn sure about it, and I wouldn't be so excited we're having a boy!

He's still the cutest boy! But not for long...